There is one thing that I should admit, I love having this blog. I love clothes and I love how they play a part in a day or a mood. I think about what they can bring to a moment and the power they yield for me. As a generally self-conscious and anxious human being, dressing how I want, despite whatever other people might say, is how I fight against one of my biggest fears. It’s hard, because I’ve definitely stumbled back and dulled my clothes to fit in, but I’m tired of that. I’m tired of melding to different molds that are not meant for me. I won’t let this small piece of self-expression be lost anymore.

Outfit Details: Coat (Pull&Bear) Dress (amazon) Heels & Earrings (ModCloth) Book (Rebecca by Daphne du Maurier)

But let’s change perspective, it is Christmas day after all. For me, and everyone else, this Christmas is a little different. Normally I’d be in Ohio, celebrating with family. Instead I’ve stayed in Maine. A few months ago, I had expected to spend the holiday alone. I was swallowed by depression and couldn’t imagine having a happy holiday.

Things have changed so drastically. While I couldn’t spend this holiday with my blood-family, I have gotten to spend this holiday with my other family. I spent last night (Christmas Eve is my favorite holiday – except maybe Halloween) with one of my best friends and her family and today I’m spending it with another piece of my friend family.

I hate to say this, but every cloud does have a silver lining. As much as this year has been the toughest of my life, I’m glad to see how things have begun to rebuild and I am starting to feel myself again.

Veselé Vánoce!

(merry Christmas in Czech)

.Misha.

P.S. if you concerned, it’s not a real cigarette, since I don’t smoke, but merely a prop to Mad Men (1960s) dress.